Sometimes I wonder if I'm putting too much effort into building a relationship with someone. I feel like I put more work in than they produce. Could I just be overdoing it? Should I back off and not talk to them for a few days to a week or something like that? I don't want to smother them or anything, but I want to badly to spend time with this person and to get to know them. I feel like I'm constantly fighting myself to not call or text this person everyday. I always tell myself I should go with the flow, but I eventually ignore it and just want to know where I stand with the person. I haven't gotten too impatient yet, but I feel like I'm going to very soon and I want to stop this behavior.
If you haven't figured it out yet, there is a new boy that I'm interested in, and I'm so afraid of messing it up I feel like I'll mess it up trying to prevent messing it up. I really don't want to mess it up, but I don't know what I do wrong to begin with. A few of my friends say that I'm too honest and say too much in the beginning. Maybe that's all it is, because I know that I can be straight forward and most people don't know how to handle it. Plus the things I say can just be straight up weird or gross. Honesty: the thing people only pretend to want.
I'm so tired... maybe I should go to bed early tonight.
